It’s been a REALLY long time since my last post and a lot of things have been happening, both good and bad. I will start posting regularly again with updates and inspiration, but I wanted to leave this here.
I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and have faith that everything will work out somehow. I won’t lie though, it is hard. Life is more difficult than I could have ever imagined. During the 6 years that I have had POTS (and now more alphabet soup conditions), I’ve had a lot of unusual symptoms and complications from my treatments. I have been difficult to treat due to my symptoms and med sensitivities. All of my symptoms started during my freshman year of college. Six years later, I have moved across the country twice, gotten my BS and recently (finally) graduated with a Masters in Public Health. I can finally call myself Natasha N. Graves, MPH, CHES.
I was at Vanderbilt recently for some more testing/a consultation, when Dr. Biaggioni (one of the best POTS specialists in the world) told me that he was extremely happy and surprised that I have accomplished so much, given the number and severity of my symptoms. Although I have accomplished a lot given my medical conditions, I still sometimes feel like a failure because my body has failed me. After hearing that, for the first time in awhile, I actually felt pride and joy. Sometimes when you deal with so many things that are going wrong, you don’t appreciate when things are going right!
Whether is it graduating from college, traveling the world, or just getting out of bed in the morning, I firmly believe that goals are important. They are true motivators. Setting goals and working towards them help to keep you grounded, positive and sane. Furthermore, take time to appreciate the little victories as they are truly worth celebrating. I am the first one to admit that I have flaws. Sometimes I feel defeated, sometimes I don’t feel proud of my accomplishments, sometimes I struggle. I am not perfect. I am constantly trying to improve, grow and progress. Change is inevitable. No matter what you’re going through, growth should be your ultimate goal.