Well currently I’m sitting in a hospital bed. I am in the pre-op area waiting to have my third power port placed in my chest so that I can continue with hydration therapy. I finally persuaded the doctors that this is what I needed to do to get through the summer. My mom tells me I’m very good at talking people into doing things. I just say I always get what I want, no matter how hard I have to work. I firmly believe this is what I need to do to increase my quality of life.
Did I Make The Right Choice?
I hope so. The fight is definitely not over yet. I have a final from 8am-11am tomorrow and then a presentation to give at 12:15. The morning after surgery. It’s going to be rough. Then I have to finish packing because my trips are continuing as planned. I fly to Philadelphia Wednesday morning, I will be traveling to DC Friday and Saturday. On the 24th I will going to NY and from there I leave for South Africa. I may be pushing myself too hard this week and I will probably regret it. I seem to never learn my lesson when it comes to pushing myself too hard. I also now have to worry about packing a whole suitcase full of medical supplies and hoping I don’t get sepsis again.
I know the potential consequences of my actions. I am willing to take the risk if it means my happiness and a functioning quality of life. One thing I’m not willing to compromise on is my happiness. I have a plan for every potential consequence of my actions. I am prepared.
Look out for my normal Thursday post to see how everything goes 🙂